Monday, September 17, 2007

Today's Workout
30 minutes Core Rhythm Ab/Cardio workout
30 minutes treadmill
squats - 2 x 20
lunges - 2 x 10 (forward & back)
pushups - 3 x 10

ouch. ouch. ouch. Sunday my legs felt great after Saturday's run, with very little soreness. I woke up in the middle of the night, however, with serious DOMS. Wearing new shoes today (and getting the heel stuck in bad spot while crossing the street) combined with turning my ankle while searching for the breaker box outside made for the second half of my run being forfeited for a walk.

I did get the minutes in, but I was disappointed not to be able to run them all. Somewhere around 15 minutes, I started feeling this tweaking pain in the little bone (any thoughts on what it's called?) just to the outside of my ankle. Every step was painful, so I opted for the safer bet of walking. No pain when walking, but when I tried to begin running again, more pain. And that's why I finished with a long walk.

Tomorrow I'll take a break from running, and Wednesday, Sandra and I will hit the park at lunch. Wish me luck!

Saturday, September 15, 2007

We had a very nice start to the weekend. I planned to take Hunter with me to Cullen Park and run while she rode her bike, but that would have meant leaving Joel and Nicholas home. It also would have meant trying to figure out a way to get Hunter's bike into the car (top down??), but Joel was the voice of reason and said there was no way in hell I was putting her bike in my car. :-)

Instead, we piled both kids & bike into the SUV and headed off for Mary Jo Peckham Park. My plan was to run for an hour and let Hunter ride as much of it as she could and then she could play on the kids' equipment with Nicholas. Well, what's that old saying about the best laid plans?? Something about them getting all screwed up?

To her credit, she was excited and really tried to ride with me. I don't run quickly (as is evident on the right of the screen), but two-thirds of the trail is dirt. It's great for running, but not so great for a kid's bike with training wheels. Compound walking backwards waiting for her to catch up with stopping and watching her run up a hill then back down and I finished with a 20 minute mile. Seriously. One mile. 20 minutes.

We packed the bike back into the car and just played for the rest of our time there. Then we stopped off at our favorite little hole-in-the-wall Mexican restaurant. As usual the food was better than average and the kids cleaned their plates.

So that means 1) I didn't run as far as I intended outdoors this a.m. and 2) I ate really yummy, really high fat Mexican food for brunch.

Alas, all was not lost! We made it home after picking up a new tire for Joel's bike and while Nicholas napped and Hunter played, I hopped on the treadmill for my 60 minutes. I did it! God, I was tasting brunch the whole time, but I ran barely over 5 miles in 60 minutes. Long, slow run, right? I think this qualifies as slow, and it's sure as hell longer than what I'd normally do.

Dinner was actually relatively healthy, and I haven't wanted to snack all day. In an attempt towards honesty, I should say that's because I pigged out on chips & salsa at brunch. Whatever.

I did try a new recipe for this smashed cauliflower thing at dinner. I need to add more seasonings, but overall it was decent.

Confetti Cauliflower
1 bag frozen cauliflower
1/2 bag frozen julienned peppers (red & green)
1/2 cup low-fat whipped cream cheese

Nuke the first two ingredients until warm, add the third and blend until smooth. (I had to nuke it more after blending because the cheese was cold, but it was an easy thing to do.) I topped it with some paprika, but it could have used more in the actual mix. It didn't suck, which is more than I can say for most other attempts I've made at making cauliflower edible.

I don't know if I want to run tomorrow or take a break. It's not like I need another break from running, since last week it was almost negligible. I read somewhere this week that if after a long slow run you feel the need for an all-afternoon nap, or that you can't get up your stairs, then you didn't run slowly enough. For that reason, I ran slower today. I felt noticeably better than I normally would after a weekend run, and that's what leads me to think I could run tomorrow with no negative affects.

OH!!!! I almost forgot ~ I got new running shoes !!! I didn't realize I needed them until I ran in them. Oh my gosh, I had forgotten what good cushioning felt like! The ones I got last year are here but last year's version. They were/are great, but apparently I've run more on them than I realized. I still like my Nike Free (first edition), but I've worn holes in the stretchy bit above the heels.

Clearly I'm on a roll talking to myself here... what next? I guess nothing. Happy & healthy running to all of you!

Thursday, September 13, 2007

Today's Workout
60 minutes RT - PM

Talk about having reality smack you in the face.... I was just reading my old [and very limited] blog and had a posting there from exactly 2 years ago. I was thrilled to have reached a particular weight. I was thrilled to pass mirrors and not flip out over the 'fat chick in my clothes'. (yea, there was the whole bit about how some bigger girls are quite able to look pretty and well put together, but I'm not one of them, so I'm not hating on larger people, I swear ~ it just doesn't work for me.) And guess what that magic number was? Are you ready?

I'm not telling. What I will say is that it approximately 28 lbs below where I am these days. Unless my brain is fried and I can't do math today, but I don't think that's it. It better not be, as I just closed a multi-million dollar deal and there were calculations involved.

If I were speaking this outloud [to myself] there would be a string of expletives invoked here. Since I'm posting this for anyone and everyone to read, I'm not going there. Just know that I'm highly disgusted that instead of reaching my goal weight shortly thereafter, I'm now heavier than ever.

There's also a bit about the advice I'd give myself on my marriage, if I happened to be a friend of mine. How I cope [or don't] cope with the myriad of routine problems in my life has more to do with the number on the scale than anything else. I'm afraid that if I don't stop stuffing myself with food to avoid the real issues I'll just get bigger and bigger until I explode. I'm afraid that if I do stop stuffing myself with food to avoid the real issues, the emotions will come out and I'll explode. The bottom line is that I'm afraid.

So how do I get beyond this? How do I just suck it up and make it all work as best it can? For starters, I sign off, change into my workout clothes and meet Lisa downstairs for our workout.

The questions I pose aren't just rhetorical. I'm open to hearing/reading any suggestions that may be offered.

Thursday, September 06, 2007

Today's Workout
20 minutes walk - PM
60 minutes RT - PM

Janet and I had another good workout with Lisa tonight. Lots of legwork, such as wall squats, one leg squats, deadlifts, leg lifts - from a side lying plank-ish position on the ball. As I said, LOTS of legwork! Back and calves, too, but I think my quads and hamstrings will feel it the most tomorrow.

And speaking of tomorrow, I've scheduled a treat for myself ~ a 90 minute massage. It's been ages since I've had one at all, and I've specifically requested someone who specialises in deep tissue, in order to work out some of the excess toxins (i.e., CAFFEINE) in my system.

Food stuff was good today, not perfect, but snacks were fresh fruit in the afternoon & a protein smoothie tonight after the workout. Lunch was a BIG salad, grilled chicken, and tomato bisque. I have no idea how the soup was made, but it was yummy and I needed that today. Surely it had to be better for me than the normal empty calories in baked lays, chocolate covered almonds, chips/salsa, or other such [yummy] crap.

More important than what I ate was that I felt in control of what I ate. I was more cognizant of whether I was really hungry or just wanting to munch (when that happened I grabbed 2 strawberries and a bunch of grapes from the fruit basket at work). That feels like an improvement.

Amy commented on yesterday's post that I should look at what fears are holding me back from making the right choices and living in the body I want. She's absolutely correct. I've been psychoanalysed to death and although I do know the whacked out reasons behind my rather irrational fears of being fit/thin/attractive again, there is something stopping me from making the consistent changes needed to reach my goals.


it's probably just me.

On to more exciting topics... Hunter is cheering at her first pep rally tomorrow. I can't believe it. She's so worked up about it, and she's been practicing so hard. This is going to be so much fun!

Thanks to anyone and everyone who bothers to take the time to read this. Your comments are always welcome and appreciated.

Wednesday, September 05, 2007

Today's Workout
45 minutes tempo run (2 min. w/ 2 min. recovery) PM - 3.24 miles

Well, that didn't suck.

I'm still dreadfully slow, but that's okay. I am making progress and, while still slow, I'm faster than I imagined I could be this time last year. Huge improvements in endurance are evident also.

It's about freakin' time, folks. I guess the consistency thing really does pay off.

Speaking of consistency, Sandra has suggested that the two of us begin running at lunch twice a week. That means that instead of my evening run, I'll be getting in 30 minutes during the day. I might still be able to add a bit at night, but I don't want to overdo it. It will be nice to have someone to run with again, and Sandra is great company. It won't hurt that I'll actually be OUTDOORS running, which I desperately need practice in doing. I love my treadmill, but it's not the real thing, ya know?

In talking with another fitness/nutrition specialist (btw, I do still <3 Trainer Lisa but a girl's gotta tap all the resources she can!), he commented that this business about doing the right things to lose the weight and improve fitness (i.e., consistent yet varied cardio + resistance training + clean eating) is much like buying a new car. I know what the cost of fitness is. Do I want to pay that price in order to obtain the body I know I can have again?

Do I?

This has definitely triggered some new (and a resurgence of old) thoughts for me. I have some decisions to make and they're the same ones I've wrestled with making a million times over the past 4 years.

Either I accept myself at this size and this sub-par level of fitness and continue with the unhealthy eating and sporadic exercise, or I suck it up and make a change. If I don't do it now, I'll just have to revisit this decision later. Hell, even if I do it now, I'll still have to revisit it again and again in order to keep the motivation.

Tuesday, September 04, 2007

Yesterday's workout
45 minute tempo run

Today's workout
20 minute walk (AM)
60 minutes RT (PM)

I'm beat.

Looking forward to continuing the 3 day per week running ~ 1 tempo, 1 interval, 1 long slow run. Well, the long runs aren't so long right now, but they'll get there. I'm following the Half Marathon Training Schedule for Runners & Walkers by Jeff Galloway. There's no immediate plan to actually run a half-marathon, but I needed some sort of training plan to follow with a start and a finish. And who knows, maybe 13.1 will sound good again some day!?
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